So, I havn't been on this site for quite awhile...
strangely enough it was the first place I thought of coming
after what happened this weekend to my friend and I.
First of all, I was drinking...something of which I never
do..honestly I think its pointless which is why this sounds
stupid.
Anyway...I have been going through alot of stuff lately and
to me..this was a simple way to escape the feeling..
to feel numb, to just escape the realityy of everything.
Yeahh, I managed to do it...little did I know the concequences of my actions.
The last thing I remember is walking to my friends house...
and then waking up the next morning in the hospital attatched to an intervenus...and other machines.
Apparently, a lady had found us passed out in the middle of
the street.
Although she was a complete stranger she never hesitated
once to help me.
I dont know who this lady is...but she saved my life.
The cops ended up picking us up...after that I was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance.
It is so much worse than I have put in words here.
The regrets I have for putting my parents through this
agony...it wont go awayy.
All in all, trying to get rid of the pain..led on more.
Tons of regrets and guilt...I could have died.
I just thank God for giving me one more chance.....to
change my life around.